I don't hate my husband as a person. I think we are good friends. But... SEX is really painful. For a long time, I was excited to see intense videos like SM and training secretly. When I saw it, my dick ached, and I wanted to be done with it, too. Long before I met my husband. But I didn't have the courage to jump into that kind of world, so I put on a normal face and went out with my husband and got married. I was interested, but it was a world without connections, I thought that I would have normal sex with my husband. In fact, it was fine at first. But... it didn't work. Before I knew it, I started to wake up more and more when I saw my husband trying hard to make me go. I have to feel that I am doing my best, and I have to pretend that I feel good. I also had more time to console myself during the day. To be honest, I just couldn't stand it anymore. In such a situation, myself who rejects my husband, and my husband who refuses and doesn't complain. So… today, hold me so hard that I can't think of anything else.
